i know its so cliche to say this break was everything i needed
but, it really was.
it was a break from my life,
but in the same sense,
it was everything that has been consistent
and normal in my life for the past few years.
which i think i really really needed.
so thank you, to everyone that was a part of this break...
even if it was just a chat online;
or chilling in alex's or timmy's basements
or sucking at geometry wars
or playing guitar hero
or beruit (timmy and flex... i owe you a six pack... or a naked lap...)
or going in the hot tub four nights in a row... most likely after 1 am
or eating pies with my parents
or watching porn for 2 hours in the late night/early morning
and not having it be awkward
and for trying things for the first... and second time
and for the short and long car rides
and for just being yourselves.

i realized how much i missed all of you,
and how much i miss living in webo
and how much i'm going to miss it even more this time next year.
it honestly scares me
but
i know
that it won't matter where we all are
at this time next year

because we're a close group of friends,
and its going to take a lot more to break us up
which gives me comfort, knowing that i won't lose any of you soon
that would make for a very sad carissa.



thanks.

today sucks.


thats pretty much all i have to say.


hopefully tomorrow will be better.


hopefully.